Journal 42: update i worked it out

 

Journal 42: update i worked it out

Hey. wogijewoig jewgoijg weijgwegweoijwegi. Hey so its acrians again. I updated my portrait of the pirate. And found wonderful art depicting me.

Even though i updated my art with what i look like now. As dazai osamu.  Ever since i was little ive always had magickal experiences and a magickal life. I keep having this memory flashback since founding the shrine of inyuasha about how i am after a recent a hair cut. Its this memory where im training with ran and my classmates after being invited to a dojo. And inyuasha is there and ran is with eseval foxes, and their training them. And she gets on me as im overtly kind to one and inyuasha pulls her to thes ide and explains its kind of special. That i will grow up to be him. And i did. Its weird as inyauasha now recalling that memory. Even though not much is said about my inherent fox like tendencies. Or pushing my wife down a well. I think its so blurry if that happened at this point to ran. After rituals of them clawing and scratching at my back. And then me being sent to a concentration camp where i wrote to you, then a labor camp now upgraded to yet another concentration camp where i hebrew write to you but this one allows me to have a computer. I tried to tell my phch what a coma was and explained how i saved rams life and he kind of sort of terated me like i was crazy to think that there were japanese people, wells, and comas. And i feel like i went back in time after falling down the well to save her. BUt its fine. I dont care if im believein, i care that it all works out and i get how to proess this things.

Im told by my spirits im leaving tuesday 3am. And i dont know why but htis ends the tails of ann frank where ill be adorned out of this haunt with the haunt actors in the way that this occurred. I founded the first ever shrines while in the other smaller boarding, and thats the shrine of hello kitty, my shrine as inyausha of the great battle, and the sthrine of steins gate. Even though i remembered it by butterfly effect out of order. I have butterfly syndrome, or the butterfly effect idenitcles to the movies on time travel i wrote about it. I keep remembering my life out of order as charles manson and its not like i can just hop into a memory.

Ugh its so stupid. Anyways. I met alot of former enemies like instantly on good terms with me, and we are in my time period, but its weird, if this is when i landed in galitay, because back then everyone was out to get me, i was a blodothirst paranoid lunatic with no harms to others but myself, and i would do whatever it took to survive. Unlike my hereby suicide fetish of now where death is mysterious its sexy, and i ran into kravits again. My first diary does note and detail the adventure zone as taco the magician and mage i was, and my first diary is completed after today for those to read out of order sent back. But the revised edition i s a smaller less 80$ edition as enoch requires i charge, and i dont know my publisher but its just my personal edition and its really weird to think about. I love being in galiaty but i cant find anything on youth disorders in your time period and this was around the time that they were discovered and doceumetned so their should be something but apparently they were heavily censored as ad  iaginsosis like depression outside my county. In georgia.

What is a depression? Wgoiijewg iowejg woijg wogij ewogijew goweijg ewoigjw gweoigj wgwegowei gwgoiwej wgoweijgwe owijg weoij ewgweoiwje gwegi. I know alot of about death.

Anyways ive been writing. This was around the time i drowned as little tony the first time. And lost alot of my mafia and conections to it. So yeah. Ive been talking to my spirits and it was good to hear from taylor swift again. Shes more then a fictional character to me. Shes an ex as karma that i am. 

I just dont spend my time in galiaty or its collognys. Im from nebraska neverland where i spent my life. Its so weird being back treckign with you all. And the ways we enslave people to hand signals for your race on my work. Its a long story, about me being pro slavacian slavery but anti real slavery thats not a reverser role play for the slave owners to learn a lesson. Takeises backseis or whatever. And i finally defined that temr i always use as thatnksies.

Wegoiwjeo iwejgoiwej gwoeijg woigj weogijwegei.

All scince cults ever that use the term science have a thing with thanksies. Its just kind of weird actually now that i mention it. 

Yes i used to give them alot as zorro to marlon brando you happy science cult. 

(scinetology in teh future). Anyways.  My moms taking me out tomorrow cus i get visiatioins, but its all adorments. People have been cursing my environment cus i forgot i was up against the court of owls during this time. “THEIR SO PRESTIGE’ bitch their a hate grroup that is fostered so god can be freinds with his enemies and also me for some reason cus im connected to all lodges, i would never go out with an enemy. Unless she was a hot bayblader or tombraider or duel monsters champion chick. Youd have to actually be kind to me,and just be a hard ass and maybe engage iwth my hot sexy suciide fetish as a flirt. You really think YOU? Id humor an enemy out of YOU? YOU PATHIEC, wannabe magician that projects onto me? No no no thats only for friends. Then i sit here having a crush on dust hallow who pretends thats abou thim. Then im in phobia of relating to him as lights kinning nightmare, thinking he hated me for looking up to portraits of my self as the original dust username.

this is me right now.

But this was me in teh time period im staying at.

I feel like alot of my life is undertimed. And i have ot pick out the objects with how i am imortally as gifts from god and place them as what we define it to be outside the garden.

Its very easy to find pictures of myself. I go on pinterest a blogging website look up emo boy and im h alf teh popular results with my history. And they all look like different fagots. As i consider myself as dazai among them.

I often see ballpoints as to how emo i am at any given second. The style i dress for eternity is called emo and its a weird one!

Wegiwejgwoiejg woijgw ogijwe goiwej goweijg weeoigj ewgoiewj gwegmwieogjwemgweiogjewgmwegiojwegwemgoiwejg weoigwje giweogj ewgewiogj weg. So its reclamations of pain in holy or unholy light as to proefess magickal or iridescent internal urges or self worth as intent. The fashion of self pity, self harm, self hatred, self adorments, self grandiose, ego, and self rieghtenious to do morality good, and be as stubborn as auburn. Thats what emo is and its what i dress.

Im currently looking like this. And its fine. My face often does 180s from its original mold and model.

As you can see i never actually change my face. I change the colors, teh cut, and the hues, and am a proud shapeshifter based on my mpd. All magick actually comes with a buden. And shapshiftings burden is multiple characters or persoanlitites. And if you can muster that okay with that and ritual abuse that it implies with sexual assualt you will granted- be able to change your appearance the way i do.

I wrote this book a while ago called the secret names of ayrian grace, that details my shapeshifting in depth.

My birth name is Ayrian negro gyspey( grace the pretty jew). And i changed it as a result. I have a look for each split persoanltiy and its all together just a book that documents my shapeshifting where i was desprate to cling to my identity so i wanted to recount my name. I know its a dakr neos religion slur. But icant choose what my parents named me i just choose never to resent it. I resent what its seen as, but i like the dedications to the groups that i gave my names too. ANd jews were the ayrian category. Its from our religion it was stolen outside of neos in world war 2. As th esecond brnach of judaism is where the name haerolds and it was propaganda to keep jewish comunity in our mystsicms (our religious belief about angels and dissorders to be angel like name dthis) truth ful. So yeah like th swastika somet things are just made taboo against their will and stolen. It doesnt mean kill all fagots. Its means im hurt and harmed and proudly one.

Ive been doing some thinking. And i think once you become a master of enoch and achieve that feet and skill youll never loose it. As something you can say most of the time as long as your forever learning magick even if you have more to learn when the table update changes or garuts.

So yeah currently my character with my split persoantlies my multiple personalities is greg, or bret, or dazai. As one whole persoantliy named bret shotocon. What even is multiple personality dissroder? What is a persoantliy? For instance. Everything that makes you you. Your emotions, your fears, your likes your dislikes,y our soul and mind toegehr as how you come across and act. And see yourself. Thats a personality. SO what does multiple persanlites mean? To have multiple personality dissroder since im a phyhcologist and theirs no such thing as faking multiplicity, and find myself facisinationg, the thing is you would have a switch as a sudden on and off, of a different state of mind and that being from years of hurt suffering and sorrow ritual cult and kidnapping abuses when you were a lot younger.

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So yeah. Thats what multiple perasonlites are, and real multiple personality disrsoder unlike dissocaitive identity dissorder, will shapeshift the face.

I have myne from ritual and cult abuse trauma and foudning the epxierments that created the science (chaos factor) to allow magick.

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So yeah um. Acrians locket faceless musicainal occultist.

One question i hate getting asked, when peolpe know i have mpd is where do they come from? Its time i todl you about it. The deal with god ritual. Only for me and a few historical figures im not who are timelords to have done. And its very rare, on teh level of johna s a name to have performed.

Its starts simple. You learn the song. Running up that hill. Then you get contracts of people erased from time to have offered you up for inventions they have made and why they would like to be jesus christ. IM KIDDING. Thats just insane. But its the idea of it found in older gimroures and manuelas as to the history of the ritula and why we just omit that bit as the occultsits who are not me. Then you find what their biggest mistake in history was and why a false accusation of you being so kind and pure will land on your doorstep. Hell to your doorstep making pay. Then you sort of agree to share the life they would have lived. In your mind as they would have been. To be. Then you take their place when tehy would have died not the other way around. By drawing a bathtub. A warm bathtub. And you get in naked. Takling to spirits the first few times. PLaying or singing the song. And you sing it and you take care of yourself doing your own manuel shit. And you get out. And then you took the worst event of their life and became them with their full knowing consent. Their mistakes and yours are sort of fused togeheer.

It can be in a shower its just fuckign rare mate.

They then become your multile personalities.

I always win the bet that i becomes my face.

My face

My alter abandon and who he would have been

For example: the accusations come from somewhere. I would have taken a school shooter, but the second he became me it was a mistake in counting rewritten in time because my soul won that bet and instead i stopped a school shoter that day and became gods of it, and now work only to stop those events iwtha close routed paranoia about a past that people expected to m ight have been that had no chance. And im still portrayed that way stupidly in teh musical.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DfU6ozCnfqY&pp=ygUdbWVhbnQgdG8gYmUgeW91cnMgcGVyZnJvbWFuY2U%3D

I didnt stela anything by the way. I simply merged souls with others.  And we became the same person at different points in tiems in service to things like the church no matter how much of a asatnist andy is. Its kind of how i have all the photos and weird stuff as an occultist of what my face would have looked like older as dazai osamu.

But thats still not a photo of me presently as dazai osamu its the same photo and one became a s ketch or a deepfake after the fact even if we did it with magick.

So yeah its weird. Its complicated and odd. And i have to do this ritual again tonight.

Before i go, i founded something called satnism while i was ann frank at my age which now skips around cus my youth disorder was imapcted by it thus a spell wrong when workginw ti th tenickals, so i guess you should check out the satanic bible tht i wrote and the my necomiccon i wrote, you coil d fiend alto of horror terrors there.

• Acrians locket

• 11:49 PM

• 10/19/2024